ergh. i feel horrible. all of a sudden. it feels like everything is gonna come to a crescendo, like something big is going to happen, but i have no idea what. and i hate not knowing. i feel like im unprepared for something big. and i just feel so uneasy and terrible. whywhywhy.
guess i’ll find out soon enough, not that im looking forward to it at all, since its probably just gonna flip my life over again.